
This is how it always ends
somewhere
(and always)
between
HELLO
&
GOODBYE
we are
in
LOVE . . .
this happens
over
&
over
//////////////
the
love
disolves
sometime
during
a long
period
between
hi
&
bye
///////////
it always does
&
i don’t
know
why
(Jim Wortham, January 1, 2023)
Am I Happy, Unhappy or Feeling Numb?
these days
it’s difficult to put an emotion
on my feelings
my health has taken a turn
doctors don’t have answers
my food is my friend — like
sardines (I cut the tails off before eating)
i select different types of crackers
making sardines tastier / / /
Mornings —
two cups of coffee with
creamer
while swallowing meds & vitamins
i see “balance of nature” vitamins
on tv advertising — the ads
almost guarantee one will feel
30 years younger or more —
guess what ?
no such luck
i’ve gone back
to cheaper vitamins i buy online
i also eat cheese — lots of cheese
with pickled boiled eggs
with a tad bit of black pepper
& hot sauce
makes for a good meal / / /
i’m trying to lose a few pounds
i’m told to exercise but i think
that’s a dirty word, isn’t it?
ok, i will walk, yes . . .
i’ll walk from the parking lot
to
where i shop at a store
yesterday i had energy —
enough to go to “dollar tree”
i bought cleaning supplies
i won’t bother you with the kinds or brands
i have a friend who brings me goodies
various kind of adult drinks in bottles
& diet drinks (name brand drinks)
he’s a good man
a really good man to be so kind to me
a long time ago i stopped buying
bottled water — is drinking tap water
from the water company so bad ?
my days are spent
reading books
sometimes watching TV
(but not much anymore)
i can’t seem to find any good things
to watch these days
books are my pleasure
oh, how i remember so many years ago
when i wrote and published
love poetry books
& traveled throughout the states
giving poetry readings at universities
& afterwards, being treated to wine & cheese
& other goodies to eat
by the facility
with students asking to talk
and hang around with me
yes, those were the good days
when book sales allowed me to
buy cars and a cabin beside a pond
and dine wherever my friends
wanted to eat
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >
i’ll write more later
thanks for visiting me today
______________________
(Jim Wortham, December 14, 2022)
Published on WordPress —
Time . . . you are rushing me — TOO FAST!
years pass
i can’t stop them
i look up the ages
when my friends passed
i’m not there
yet
but time won’t stop
i beg time to slow down
but it only rushes
some reason
i think i won’t be here
for long ///
after contracting the covid virus
long term covid set in
i have no energy
i sit
most of the time
not wanting to eat
not wanting to leave home
not wanting to
call anyone on the phone
the covid may be the cause
as i am in the high risk group
let’s see if
i make it one more year
maybe i’ll keep a journal
just put a few lines a day–
i have the energy for 2 lines / / /
i read slowly these days
i’ve stopped writing
poetry & prose
i doubt if anyone
reads this
(Jim Wortham, December 12, 2022
Depression is knocking on my door for a place to live
it’s december
cold
depression keeps knocking
saying
“your parents are dead
your brother is dead
friends are dying —
let me be your friend now”
depression tells me
“get ready for your
time of departure
it could be anytime”
i try not to let
depression come in
but
this year is different
depression keeps knocking
at my door
day and night
(Jim Wortham, December 11, 2022)
I did not know you wanted to date me
if I had known
i would have
called & we would enjoy
laughter, kisses and
days filled with fun
i never knew you
thought of me
i thought
your beauty was for other guys
like sports players
guys with fancy cars
i had low self esteem
still do
i wish i had known
you sometimes looked
at me and sent mental thoughts
for me to call
for an evening out
(Jim Wortham, December 9, 2022)
Autumn is gone– life is almost complete
It’s time
i move on
my colors have fallen
like the leaves
long term covid
had stripped me
i have
stopped eating
can’t sleep
no energy
doctors don’t know
any
answers ///
i lose weight
i sleep late
and of course
don’t care about
about politics
it never matters–
the promises are broken
###################
the last few leaves
are falling today
soon
my energy will
be no more
it’s unusual to feel
losing the race
even those who
know me —
i feel
i turned off
they snap at me
if i say something
/ / / / / / / / / / / / / / /
the good book
says there is a
time for everything
now
i know what
everything means
i think winter is coming
and as snow
melts
it will be my
time to
melt
___________________________
(by Jim Wortham, November 6, 2022)
Thanks for the dance
i went to dances in high school
i danced
with anyone who said “yes”
i went to local schools
(girls at other schools
did not know
how shy i was during that time)
then college happened —
i never found
the perfect partner
then after college
i visited
dance clubs
& country clubs
with dance nights
to meet someone
anyone
to date —
time passes
and tonight i’m thinking about
all who i danced with —
i didn’t show
enough appreciation
for the lovely dances
+ + + + + + + + + + + +
now is better than never
if you and i danced
once upon a time
thank you,
thank you,
thank you!
+ + + +
and if
we meet again
“may i have another dance?”
and if we have never danced
and you see me
please
ask me for a dance
i promise to
thank you for your dance
(Jim Wortham, September 26, 2022)
covid, cobra or viper
my friend
could not pronounce covid
she called it
cobra
when covid started mutating
she called the next virus
viper
she could remember shakes
i wonder if the next
mutation will be called
rattle snake/
i’m just wondering
nothing wrong with
guessing what’s next
(Jim Wortham, September 21, 2022)
Death, please don’t awaken me when it’s my turn
this feeling . . .
it’s more than my thoughts
i don’t wake up as i once did
now sleeping until 11:30 a.m.
or noon
before i want to begin the day
not hungry
breakfast is a liquid meal replacement
whichever is cheapest at stores
caught covid three times
long term covid symptoms are
bringing my energy
down
down
& really down/
as i drink my liquid breakfast/lunch
i read books by my former friends —
who all were
striving to become famous authors
they passed on
to the next
forever adventure
(dear writer friends
how are you doing up there)
i wait in line–
wait my turn
energy
is slowly leaking
& dripping
it must happen
it always does for all
i had so many plans during youthful years
youth–where did you go
old age–why are you coming
death, don’t bother to greet me
don’t knock on my door
let me asleep
when you visit
(Jim Wortham, September 21, 2022)
I am losing weight –will you be my friend now?
Many reading this are like me
–just a tad bit overweight
should i say 50 pounds–if
i say i need to lose 65 pounds or more
will you delete me as a friend?
don’t unfriend me yet
i already lost 2 pounds over 3 months
losing weight is slow going
especially when people visit
and leave ice cream, cookies,
cakes, pies and goodies like that
however losing 2 pounds is a start
ain’t it
even if it takes a few months
think about how slim i’ll look
in 25 more years if i lose 2 pounds
every few months
i’ll have my slim high school figure back
and will get invitations to be friends
once again
(i think i have 2 or 3 friends i see from time to time–
in my hay day i actually had 7 friends)
you ask what i do these days
i don’t work a job
i’m trying my best to live from book royalties
i’ve written books since age 19 —
i always self-published them
& it is true that i would go knocking on doors
down all the streets i could walk down
and ask them if they would like to
buy an autographed book or two?
i’m almost there again–
not enough of my books are being sold on
internet book sites so
i’ll need to put my
cleanest dirty clothes
and go door to door
with a big grin, and
give them a chance to by
a book or two or more
from a real author (that would be me)
i’m sharing too much
with you ain’t i ?
let’s go back to the weight discussion
will i sell more books up and down the streets
if i loose a few more pounds ?
may lose an additional 3 or 6 pounds ?
should i wear a cool hat
(that i got from a goodwill store) ?
and put myself in a special league
with the likes of singers bob dylan
and leonard cohen
you know
something that will separate me
from the average joe
i’ll keep you updated
with my progress
i only need to sell 2 books a day
to pay for my food
(i buy my food at dollar stores)
i drive an old car (paid for)
somewhere around 15 years old
and my poetry shack was
deeded to me from a friend
with no family
yes, my clothes– they are all from the goodwill
or salvation army stores
(I go to the one dollar sales racks)
well, enough of me for today
thanks for visiting
sending you love and prayers
and all good things
(Jim Wortham, September 20, 2022)
PS: remember money won’t buy you love —
i don’t know who wrote that