Am I Happy, Unhappy or Feeling Numb?

these days it’s difficult to put an emotion on my feelings my health has taken a turn doctors don’t have answers my food is my friend — like sardines (I cut the tails off before eating) i select different types of crackers making sardines tastier / / / Mornings — two cups of coffee withContinue reading “Am I Happy, Unhappy or Feeling Numb?”

Time . . . you are rushing me — TOO FAST!

years pass i can’t stop them i look up the ages when my friends passed i’m not there yet but time won’t stop i beg time to slow down but it only rushes some reason i think i won’t be here for long /// after contracting the covid virus long term covid set in iContinue reading “Time . . . you are rushing me — TOO FAST!”

Depression is knocking on my door for a place to live

it’s december cold depression keeps knocking saying “your parents are dead your brother is dead friends are dying — let me be your friend now” depression tells me “get ready for your time of departure it could be anytime” i try not to let depression come in but this year is different depression keeps knockingContinue reading “Depression is knocking on my door for a place to live”

Autumn is gone– life is almost complete

It’s time i move on my colors have fallen like the leaves long term covid had stripped me i have stopped eating can’t sleep no energy doctors don’t know any answers /// i lose weight i sleep late and of course don’t care about about politics it never matters– the promises are broken ################### theContinue reading “Autumn is gone– life is almost complete”

Thanks for the dance

i went to dances in high school i danced with anyone who said “yes” i went to local schools (girls at other schools did not know how shy i was during that time) then college happened — i never found the perfect partner then after college i visited dance clubs & country clubs with danceContinue reading “Thanks for the dance”

Death, please don’t awaken me when it’s my turn

this feeling . . . it’s more than my thoughts i don’t wake up as i once did now sleeping until 11:30 a.m. or noon before i want to begin the day not hungry breakfast is a liquid meal replacement whichever is cheapest at stores caught covid three times long term covid symptoms are bringingContinue reading “Death, please don’t awaken me when it’s my turn”

I am losing weight –will you be my friend now?

Many reading this are like me –just a tad bit overweight should i say 50 pounds–if i say i need to lose 65 pounds or more will you delete me as a friend? don’t unfriend me yet i already lost 2 pounds over 3 months losing weight is slow going especially when people visit andContinue reading “I am losing weight –will you be my friend now?”