Am I Happy, Unhappy or Feeling Numb?

these days it’s difficult to put an emotion on my feelings my health has taken a turn doctors don’t have answers my food is my friend — like sardines (I cut the tails off before eating) i select different types of crackers making sardines tastier / / / Mornings — two cups of coffee with

Time . . . you are rushing me — TOO FAST!

years pass i can’t stop them i look up the ages when my friends passed i’m not there yet but time won’t stop i beg time to slow down but it only rushes some reason i think i won’t be here for long /// after contracting the covid virus long term covid set in i

Depression is knocking on my door for a place to live

it’s december cold depression keeps knocking saying “your parents are dead your brother is dead friends are dying — let me be your friend now” depression tells me “get ready for your time of departure it could be anytime” i try not to let depression come in but this year is different depression keeps knocking

I did not know you wanted to date me

if I had known i would have called & we would enjoy laughter, kisses and days filled with fun i never knew you thought of me i thought your beauty was for other guys like sports players guys with fancy cars i had low self esteem still do i wish i had known you sometimes